Conclusions

i've come to some conclusions....

i'm sick and tired of being sad. i hate that i'm depressed all the time... and that if i am even the slightest bit happy someone always seems to manage bringing me crashing back down again.

i'm done with depending on anyone. whenever i depend on anyone to do anything... i always get let down... i always end up being disappointed because things don't work out... or that people just don't ever do the things they say they will.

i wish you could just kill feeling altogether. i'm tired of my heart hurting, and i'm tired of being in love with somebody that i'm sure will never end up loving me in the same way. i know he loves me... he's told me that he does... it just isn't in more than one way.... like i love him... everyway possible.

i'm tired of being alone and lonely. i'm so fed up with being around people all the time but still feeling alone. i'm tired of just wishing that people would be happy with me the way i am and quit trying to change that. is there really something all that wrong with the way i am?

i'm just so tired of life.